That Random Self-Talk

Down the memory lane, when I stare back
Wandering if I have lost the track
Of things I always have cherished for!

So many thoughts get lost every night...
Questions go in vain, doubts lead to fight...
Leaving me even more quiet...

I wonder if it makes any sense.
But all I am left with now are
'What if' and 'I wish'!

I knew all along that life would be tough and not always fair...
That fighting my own demons would become a filthy affair...
And I can do nothing but just let it be!

Then what has become so different!
Why all I can think of is to lament
Over the hollowness that seems to triumph!

Am I not the one that I have been?
Who never let the shouts get through her...
Who always fights back and does no matter what it takes!

I know the essence of my being is still there, telling me to open the cuff...
Gather the fake burdens I am carrying and just sigh them off...

May be all I need to do is nothing but be myself!!!