"Yes..I know.. You missed me... I missed you too.. But what do I do! My parents don't allow me to meet you more often.. They think I waste my time when I am here with you..." ,she said in one go..And then stopped thinking something.. She kept gazing with her mysterious eyes..
She was always like that.. She indeed admired 'the nature'.. for being so calm and cool all the time.. This always attracted her.. She found peace in nature's lap.. She loved lying there and watching the stars.. the moon.. the plants.. the flowers.. the sky.. the earth.. the wind.. And.. The RAIN... For her, it was divine to talk with the nature.. to spend time with all of them.. And RAIN.. it always pacified the rising storms in her heart.. always...
But today.. She was different.. Lost in her own thoughts.. So calm and composed.. It was not that cheerful bubbly girl who loved adventures and was amused every time she met the nature's beauty.. She was not like this ever before.. It seemed like the silence before the storm.....
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!! NO.. IT IS NOT ME.. IT CAN'T BE ME.." ,she yelled out and then stared at the sky too intensely .. Her eyes revealed her heart's unspoken words...
'How she was misunderstood every time by her loved and admired ones..
How she was cheated by people who once called her their best friend..
How her dreams and wishes were shattered beneath maintaining the so called image and fear of society of her family...
How she was trapped, used and misinterpreted and people who said they trust her..din't take a second thought before questioning her honesty and her character..'
'She was broken inside.. tired of explaining herself for the mistakes she din't even commit.. And still.. she had to.. "WAKE UP! MAKE UP! AND SHOW UP!!!" .. because deep inside she knew.. nobody would try or want to try to understand her.. She had to fight them herself and go through the turmoils of life all alone.. After all .. it was her journey.. and she had accepted that.. Life is difficult.. still beautiful.. '
She was numb.. Tears rolled down her cheeks.. All she wished for was to have someone who will reciprocate her feelings...
Suddenly, she felt something on her lips.. a tiny droplet of water... Her beloved RAIN had come.. to pacify her ..like always..
She smiled... for she knew that.. it was not just RAIN .. but the reflections of her own PAIN.. which had come to redefine her.. To awake the real her.. To remind her that the purpose of life was to be happy.. to be a giver.. of smiles..
Being herself was the best option she was left with.. :)
Tapasi Palo
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