"I am feeling kind of done yaar... Losing it every day slowly... And don't even feel like putting any effort to turn things around... Like what is the point... It is a dead end anyway... Everything is in a spiral... And it is going to shatter the leftover pieces in some way or the other... It is just a matter of time... Everyone has a life going on that is already the priority and there is no space where another one can fit into that frame... Seems like I am not on the right side of time again... Too much or not enough but never the only one... But that is ok too... Rather everything is ok... Except for me, it seems... I am the one bringing in a storm and making chaos and dreaming of things knowing that can never be mine the way I want and still asking for it like a child that has nothing but an innocent desire to just be for once... But no one wants that child... It needs to go... And the maturity is too heavy to carry too... It feels like it is also now enough of putting a brave face on like life is good where all I wait for is the darkness of the night where I can be the hollow existence that I feel like...But all in vain... Only if it made anything any better at all..."
That's all she could write as the moon was rising as the night came along and she curled back into the bed wondering how much more she is yet to break down still or if it was time and it could just be that final one...
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