Fear of Freedom...

It's been long time I put my thoughts into words.. I was busy figuring out.. Some so called definitions by parents.. Family.. Society.. I was busy figuring out.. Some rules.. Rituals.. In the name of culture and heritage..

And guess what I found...!!!!

It was all in vain.. When I look back to where I started and where I am now.. It's all meaningless..

The truth that I figured out.. The underlying fact behind all these.. Limelighted rituals..rules..thinkings.. Decisions.. And definitions.. Are made out of..
"FEAR OF FREEDOM"...

When I tried to understand these all.. I came to know that.. It is the fear of freedom that rules most of us.. Most human beings are afraid of the responsibilities that come with freedom.. And to overcome that fear , we make as many rules to comfort ourselves and confuse others to believe in it..

But we need to understand that a free spirit is the best gift of nature.. And we must endure it rather than suppress it...

Think at least once before you be trapped next time.. All the best..

KUCH BAATEIN ANKAHEE SI...

Kabhi kabhi jindagi ajeeb khel khelti he..
khusi gam me to gam khusi me badal deti he..
kuch pal jindagi bhar yaad reh jaati he ..
aur kuch jindagi ko yaadgaar bana jaati he..

koi hamare hone ka matlab nahi samajhta..
to koi hamare naa hone se jee nahi pata,..
koi hamare baaton ka mol nahi jaanta..
aur koi hamare khamosi ko v he anmol maanta..

koi kahe aansu hote he paani k dhaar..
koi kahe.. hasi ho ya aansu.. hote he ye moti k haar..
kisi k keh dene se duniya nahi badalti..
apni soch ho jesi wesi hi jindagi he milti...

Perhaps it was not love...

Perhaps it was not love...

You admired me.. I trusted you..
You read my eyes.. I believed your lies..
You smiled with me.. I cried for you..
You gave me dreams.. I unheard the screams..

You are best.. So as I..
But we could not make the best we..
Falling apart seemed best to us..
And we became individuals..

Far away..but still connected..
With no expectations..no demands..
Being soulmates is what we are meant to be..
To cross the barriers of named relations and fake feelings..

Perhaps it was not love...
But an hideous destiny...

दोस्त

दोस्त बनते हैं अनेक से. .
करते हैं वादा वो हमसे. .
केहते हैं दोस्ती ये कभी ना टूटेगा..
रिश्तों का दामन ये कभी ना छूटेगा।

मुश्किल नहीं ये दोस्त बनाना. .
वादा करना , उसे तोड़ देना. .
वादें निभाए तो दोस्ती ना टूटे. .
 ना निकले आँसू , ना कोई किसी से रूठे. .

तापसी पाल 

ख़ामोशी ...

जाने दिल मे क्या गम है ... 
क्यों ये आँखे इतनी नम है … 
मुस्कुराना तो चाहते हैं ये होंठ.. 
पर दिल पे चलता जोर कम है … 

जाने क्या हो चला है..
सब बदला हुआ सा लगने लगा है.. 
हर तरफ खुशिया भरी है.. 
फिर भी कितनी बेचैनी है.. 

दिल में जैसे कोई कसक उठी है...
कड़वी यादों की लड़ी चली है..
केहना चाहें, कोई सुन ना पाए.. 
आज ये कैसी मुकाम आयी है.. 

दिल जी भर के रोना चाहता है... 
किसी की बाहों में खोना चाहता है... 
काश कोई समझ पाये कभी. . 
ये खामोशी जो बयान करना करना चाहती हे. . .

तापसी  पाल 

To Someone Special..

I was so lonely..
I was so sad..
I wanted to smile..
May be just a while..

My lips smiled always..
But I was not happy..
It was my little heart..
A desert in a nyle..

I needed someone..
To share my sorrows..
I had friends to laugh with..
But no one for tears..

You entered my life..
Like a boon from heaven..
Then changed my world..
And made it upside down..

You are someone..
Who read my silence..
Blessed to have you..
In this mean world's violence...:)

 Tapasi Palo

Unleashed thoughts....

Sometimes my heart gets surprised..
Unlimited thoughts arise..
Plans occur with many aspects..
Runs aimlessly..no way it gets..
It does not mean...they are meaningless..
You just use them perfectly..
And it will be praised..:)

Tapasi Palo

Success Recipie... :)

Try to have the starts in the sky..
Always work hard as a spy..
Practice until you achieve your aim..
At present, use the power of time..
Show that you can do everything..
I am possible should be your thinking..


Promise yourself to give your best..
At each moment.. think as if a test..
Lastly enjoy your work till death..
Ordeals are nothing in the way of faith..

Tapasi Palo

A New Beginning... :)

"Yes..I know.. You missed me... I missed you too.. But what do I do! My parents don't allow me to meet you more often.. They think I waste my time when I am here with you..." ,she said in one go..And then stopped thinking something.. She kept gazing with her mysterious eyes..

She was always like that.. She indeed admired 'the nature'.. for being so calm and cool all the time.. This always attracted her.. She found peace in nature's lap.. She loved lying there and watching the stars.. the moon.. the plants.. the flowers.. the sky.. the earth.. the wind.. And.. The RAIN... For her, it was divine to talk with the nature.. to spend time with all of them.. And RAIN.. it always pacified the rising storms in her heart.. always...

But today.. She was different.. Lost in her own thoughts.. So calm and composed.. It was not that cheerful bubbly girl who loved adventures and was amused every time she met the nature's beauty.. She was not like this ever before.. It seemed like the silence before the storm.....

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!! NO.. IT IS NOT ME.. IT CAN'T BE ME.." ,she yelled out and then stared at the sky too intensely .. Her eyes revealed her heart's unspoken words... 

'How she was misunderstood every time by her loved and admired ones..

How she was cheated by people who once called her their best friend..

How her dreams and wishes were shattered beneath maintaining the so called image and fear of society of her family...

How she was trapped, used and misinterpreted and people who said they trust her..din't take a second thought before questioning her honesty and her character..'

'She was broken inside.. tired of explaining herself for the mistakes she din't even commit.. And still.. she had to.. "WAKE UP! MAKE UP! AND SHOW UP!!!" .. because deep inside she knew.. nobody would try or want to try to understand her.. She had to fight them herself and go through the turmoils of life all alone.. After all .. it was her journey.. and she had accepted that.. Life is difficult.. still beautiful.. '

She was numb.. Tears rolled down her cheeks.. All she wished for was to have someone who will reciprocate her feelings...

Suddenly, she felt something on her lips.. a tiny droplet of water... Her beloved RAIN had come.. to pacify her ..like always.. 

She smiled... for she knew that.. it was not just RAIN .. but the reflections of her own PAIN.. which had come to redefine her.. To awake the real her.. To remind her that the purpose of life was to be happy.. to be a giver.. of smiles..

Being herself was the best option she was left with.. :)

Tapasi Palo

I knew this girl..

I knew this girl who loved to dream

Which got buried amidst world's scream...

I knew this girl who loved to laugh..

So called society made her rough...

I knew this girl who cherished each moment..

She dealt a past only to lament...

I knew this girl who enjoyed nature's beauty..

Family burdened her hell lots of duty...

I knew this girl who loved making friends..

She got a future with only dead ends...

I knew this girl who loved to live..

But today when I see.. I can not believe...

I am left puzzled with queries all over..

Is this the same girl is what I wonder!!

Her dreams are murdered.. laughter suppressed..

Moments were taken.. And friends distanced...

Made lonely..to fear..to fight..to breath..

For the real her was lost somewhere beneath..

Still she is alive with a belief

To rise and shine like a twinged leaf..

I know this girl with hope in her heart

To conquer.. HERSELF again.. no matter what.... 

Tapasi Palo

Tapasi Palo