And then... There comes a point in life...

And then...

There comes a point where you realize the soul is not only tired but just feels done...

With being taken for granted all those times...
With being expected to be okay despite what it does to you...
With being constantly forgiving and accommodating to those regardless...

Because you are supposed to be that one hell of a person...

One who is strong, mature, understanding...

And that in a way that suits the definition of these for those...

But still, they feel let down...
But still, you turn out to be wrong...
But still, you are doing wrong to them...

And expressing the pain you feel for ages or expecting a shred of empathy to be reciprocated makes you too much of a bargain, a hard ass, one who holds grudges, stretches what seems like insignificant things to everyone else, and makes things difficult unnecessarily...

Every time you decide to give it another chance because you love them and believe in your heart that they do too... So they deserve another chance and so do you even though it means being hurt one more time... It just never becomes the last time...

And then...

There comes a point where you realize the soul is not only tired but just feels done...

#tipsytalks

I wish I could be a little kinder to myself

I wish

I could be a little kinder to myself

Today or any other day...

I don't know if I deserve it...

I don't know what it will take...

I don't know if I ever could be...

But I wish

I could be a little kinder to myself

Today or any other day...

I think I am done yaar...💬

"I am feeling kind of done yaar... Losing it every day slowly... And don't even feel like putting any effort to turn things around... Like what is the point... It is a dead end anyway... Everything is in a spiral... And it is going to shatter the leftover pieces in some way or the other... It is just a matter of time... Everyone has a life going on that is already the priority and there is no space where another one can fit into that frame... Seems like I am not on the right side of time again... Too much or not enough but never the only one... But that is ok too... Rather everything is ok... Except for me, it seems... I am the one bringing in a storm and making chaos and dreaming of things knowing that can never be mine the way I want and still asking for it like a child that has nothing but an innocent desire to just be for once... But no one wants that child... It needs to go... And the maturity is too heavy to carry too... It feels like it is also now enough of putting a brave face on like life is good where all I wait for is the darkness of the night where I can be the hollow existence that I feel like...But all in vain... Only if it made anything any better at all..."

That's all she could write as the moon was rising as the night came along and she curled back into the bed wondering how much more she is yet to break down still or if it was time and it could just be that final one...

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